Starting immediately, I will try to commit myself to writing a reflection every day. Or at least once in two days… or… maybe at least three times a week. Oh wait, maybe at least once a week. Anyway, I’ll be writing reflections regularly starting now, and I’ve chosen tumblr because, I don’t know. Why?

Is it because I am a vain person and I think that people care about what I think?

Is it because I lack attention and think that people will start noticing me when I write?

Is it because I’m an idealistic dreamer who thinks he can change the world through his words?

No, not really. Maybe, but no, not really.

Here’s my reasons:

1. I think that writing reflections are therapeutic. I am not the happiest person in the world, I suffer from persistent bouts of sadness. Melancholy is my favorite word, it’s that sort of soft, silent sadness mixed with a certain lack of energy, and a slight forgetfulness, or at least a little indifference, for purpose. And I think writing can help me solve my problems, find out what makes me sad, etc.

2. I think writing reflections will deepen my spirituality. To atheists, this might be a bad word, but I think atheists can also have spirituality - a sense of purpose, like, for example, being a humanist. Caring for other people. Or trusting. Loving. Anything that’s beyond the empirical, logical, intellectual. I think writing reflections deepen people’s spirituality. I think it can only serve to help me understand my life more, or life in general. Purpose. Meaning. God. Things like that. The most important things.

So why am I posting it for the public to see?

I don’t actually know. Maybe a random person will come across my blog and disagree with some points. Then messages me and says, “hey, you are stupid. I disagree with point A, in fact, it is more probable that life is like point B, etc” and then dialogue starts, and then we both understand life more because we get exposed to different perspectives.

Or probably people will think that writing reflections is actually advantageous, and might also start writing as well. That’s what happened to me when I randomly came across a blogger, his name is James Altucher. He’s honest about himself and his reflections. A former programmer, tech startup entrepreneur, investor, and writer. I get a lot out of what he writes. What I like most about him is he’s honest about his negative sides. How imperfect he is. How human he is. And yet, his negative experiences give his readers a lot of things to think about and learn from. 

And of course, it’s not like a lot of people will read this blog anyway.